The heart wants what it wants. If the heart wants something that triggers intense pain or strong reactions, resist the urge to shut it down. The goal is not to repress what the heart is stirred to express (hopes, losses, despairs, longings) but rather to hold it all in love….and then release. Staying in the flow of life means feeling what needs to be felt. This alone does not make you a victim of life–it’s the story you tell about the feelings that create liberation or victimization.art by Lori Portka.
At least, that is what my wise-woman self tells me.
Trust the process.
The process is not linear.
The process will not be understood by your monkey mind (which undoubtedly will want to dictate the process and will fail miserably).
The process may be met with all your defenses. The sudden need to sleep. The sudden need to hide into a book. The sudden need to shove mouthfuls of popcorn into your mouth while reading said book.
If your body says rest, rest. If you body says dig in, dig in. If your body says, “you are putting up your defenses” then stay curious.
Allow your partner to call you out (they always will). Allow your dreams to speak to you (make sure you’re listening).
Move. Shake. Walk. Dance. Tickle. Flail. Kick. Conga. [really wise self? Conga?]
Walk, relax, meditate in savasana.
Self-care, self-care, self-care. And then some more.
The sun will rise again. It didn’t disappear, it was just out of view. Relax into the orbit of your life.
“The night comes and we give ourselves permission to dissolve into the rest of darkness. We let go of all the valleys and rivers we wish to cross and our dreams for some distant future.” -Sarah Blondin, Live Awake.
I meditated bathed in moonlight. I was brought to tears by a deeply moving meditation about learning to surrender. It was just what my soul needed.