Earlier this week I was part of a video chat with my spiritual sisterhood to talk about what it means to face the dark feminine energy and do shadow work. You can watch our video here!
What is the dark feminine? She’s the shadow side of our authentic being which is a body of light, and thus she is very powerful… that is, until we bring her into our conscious awareness. The moment you bring it forward—no cover ups!—is the moment the dark feminine loses any grip on you!
Being a woman in patriarchy is being raised to be the dark feminine… if you go for the programming that is. We are told to be “nice” girls, to sit pretty and keep our mouth shut. (Keep things hidden… engage in cover-ups.) We are raised to be copy cats in every way—the dark feminine can’t be original. She’s afraid of walking her own path. Think about the schooling you may have experienced if you grew up in the United States: copy this art project exactly! Follow this way of thinking exactly! OBEY!
The dark feminine loves gossip, she has low self esteem and envies others. She’s obsessed with the world of form and identifies with it. She doesn’t see herself as sacred. She manipulates through her sexuality. She believes she has no power and is a victim. She runs to the system to protect her and she thrives in white supremacy.
Think of the darkness the United States was founded on: take what isn’t yours and then co-opt their traditions and beliefs as your own, as long as it doesn’t disrupt notions of whiteness and capitalism.
The dark feminine doesn’t believe in true sisterhood. She tears it down. She’s afraid to be herself and trust other women. And yet there are no feminine ways without the sisterhood… so we must work together to heal ourselves and our sisterhood to understand that another way is possible.
Take a look at our video if you are interested in learning more about understanding and transmuting this energy. If you want to learn more about our sisterhood, visit Magdalas.com.
There was a point not that long ago where I didn’t trust myself. It’s strange to remember this struggle because it no longer dominates my thinking. This isn’t to say I don’t get scared or feel vulnerable — I do, and paradoxically it was precisely when the ego was in charge that I felt that vulnerability was a weakness to overcome. Not so. I see my strength in my vulnerability.
What I’ve realized is that a lot of my inner work was removing the brushes and brambles that were getting in the way of truly seeing and hearing the part of me that is connected to source. Like when you garden and so many of those fast-growing weeds take over, you can’t truly see the glorious plant hiding behind all the distractions. Once you remove it you can see clearly. Once you start to see clearly, you are much more aware when a weed pops up and you remove it swiftly.
There comes a point where it’s no longer a debate about whether you can trust in you. It is not an arrogance or a hubris but a quiet strength and inner-knowing. Of course you can do it. You were born for this.
If you aren’t there yet, just keep swimming my friend! You will eventually get there. It takes work and perseverance. I believe in you! But like my beautiful spiritual mother always says, it’s not whether I believe in you…do you believe in you?
The new world is here! Where, you ask, because I see nothing but chaos and despair. And a pandemic. And division. Well, all that’s within the people. If we can let go of what we thought the world was and what we thought it was meant to be, we can let in something new and beautiful. Resist the urge to control and maintain the status quo. Was the status quo really working for anyone anyway?
You, my friend, are a divine spark. You are LOVE! ❤️❤️❤️
The system defines your worth in relation to the outside—status, degrees, consumption, skin color, sex. It tells you to relate through pain and suffering. Victims and predators. Biases and separation. That’s all hogwash.
Your worth is inherent. Your true body is a body of light. When you can honor it in yourself, you can honor it in others. The system falls from within when you see it holds no meaning. What we see shaking on the outside is a reflection of the shaking on the inside—the realization that it’s all forking bullshirt!
“Dear universe: can you stop sending me so many @!!holes to deal with. I’m very tired of some of the actors who’ve been sent to interact with me in my hologram. I’d like to request some recasting or maybe even fun guest stars or scene changes! Thank you for your attention to this matter. Sincerely, Sarah.”
Oh goody! A response. That was quick! Let’s see what it says:
“Request denied. Life lessons in progress; see: honing skills in entrega (surrender)”.
Hmmm….there must be a mistake, how do I appeal this? Oh, here’s some fine print on the back:
“Did you really think we’d have an appeal process? Own your power, align with the one who created you, you got this!”
Ok, I see how you’re gonna play. Fine. One star review coming your way….
“Review feature currently disabled. We are not interested in your ego’s review of the situation.”
—-> Do you have any complaints that have been rejected like mine? Let me know how your your requests are being received because this is getting ridiculous!
As the feminine energy rises, anything distorted in our lives will be thrown into most obvious chaos. The call is for us to heal the distortion and bring her back into balance in ourselves. The outer will follow.
My own tendency when life is thrown into chaos–and it’s happened plenty of times, 2018 being a particularly doozy–is to desperately cling to that outer world falling apart and try to “fix it.” Speaking of 2018, I remember a desperate phone call that year to my spiritual mother explaining the SEVERE anxiety my then five-year-old was experiencing. She said, mijita, your daughter is feeling you. She’s feeling your pain. DAMN. No mother wants to hear that they are the cause of their child’s suffering, and yet don’t you know that she was correct. I did some intense inner work, healing, transmuting and sure enough my daughter responded in kind. The anxiety practically disappeared over night.
Patriarchy has told us that the way to resolving any conflict is through the outside, but the feminine ways teach us to go inward and then bring those truths out. Our world is in chaos because humans are in chaos. As we each do our work we’ll create a ripple that brings alignment back to ourselves and our communities.
If I look to the outside–the male way–and I see people dishonoring me, this can be mirror to my interior.*
If the people dishonoring me are men, it’s easy to point the finger at misogyny. But where is that inside myself?
Where do I belittle the still knowing voice inside me that speaks for the highest good of everyone? Where do I ignore her, speak over her, or try to control her? Certainly I see this behavior in the outside world all the time – but where am I doing it inside myself? (This looking inside me, this is the feminine way.)
Honor is a revelation. Once I honor this voice, and embody her truth, everything changes outside me too.
*My teacher also taught me about the concept of reflection and refraction. Sometimes the outer is pointing to your own inner stuff–but sometimes it’s not. You know, not your circus, not your monkeys.