“I am called to listen to the sound of my own heart—to write the story within myself that demands to be told at that particular point in my life. And if I do this faithfully, clothing that idea in the flesh of human experience and setting it in a true place, the sound from my heart will resound in the reader’s heart.”
The biggest realization with my cleanse? That there are certain positive behaviors I regularly engage in that rely upon other actions (say, brewing a cup of coffee…) that when missing from my routine creates CHAOS.
It turns out that coffee is the gear in our household machinery that, when absent, causes the whole enterprise to fall apart.
I am being super dramatic. But only a little! The thing is, each morning (prior to the cleanse), getting up and making coffee was the springboard to my ENTIRE DAY. With it I would wake up, show up to my computer, write, and then have time to do other positive things like exercise or start work early, or even do a morning sketch.
You might ask, But Sarah, couldn’t you replace making coffee with the act of boiling your water and adding a lemon? Great plan. Yes I also considered this. Guess what. It turns out that leaping out of bed to make hot water with lemon IS NOT A THING.
I have a week left of the cleanse, which by the way is going very well except for the coffee snafu. I am no longer having headaches. I am not even craving caffeine or sugar. I have a butternut squash in my fridge that I plan to eat in some way or another. Kale has been consumed.
But today I am drinking coffee. Decaf coffee. And I am in front of my computer and writing my day is off to a grand start. The missing gear is back!
P.S. guess who is adding a stash of coffee to the hurricane/emergency preparedness supplies? CRISIS AVERTED.
This is not a blog post. It looks like a blog post but it isn’t really one. It is me sitting down attempting to write even though I am tired and grumpy and everyone in my house is either grumpy or sick.
My only hope to turn things around are pumpkins. How I love them. My daughter does too. The problem with pumpkins in Florida is that they rot really quickly. Depending on how my daughter is feeling maybe we will go to a pretend pumpkin patch this weekend (I say pretend because pumpkins don’t really grow in subtropical climates do they??)
We will get a pumpkin and keep it in our fridge until Halloween. Just kidding. There isn’t room in my fridge! We will keep in on an inside table where it won’t be scorched by the sun. And we will eat apples and pretend it is Michigan in the fall.
Looks like I need to wrap up this sham of a blog post. My daughter is making “sand art” using garlic powder she somehow adhered to construction paper. That would be my cue to go….
I have drafts in my head that I want to put on page but instead I’m painting so the words will have to wait just a bit longer.
Things are brewing. Not coffee of course. Welp. I made it three hours into the morning and legitimately thought about throwing in the towel. That is how much I was missing my coffee. But instead I brewed lots and lots of hot water with lemon. Then I stared at piles of vegetables and decided to figure out a Plan for them later.
Today I’m savoring my cup of coffee today more than ever.
First of all I have a cross breeze flowing through my house. It is glorious. I opened the back doors to the lanai and the fresh air is tickling my toes! Oh it is a sight to behold. It is officially the time of year in Florida where you can sit with doors open without being drenched in sweat. Glory be!
And did I mention that I have my cuban coffee? We need to talk a little bit more about that.
Today I will have one cup. One kind of weak cup of cuban coffee. (Ugh.)
And in T minus two days I will have no cup of coffee.
For twelve days and twelve nights I will abstain from coffee and other caffeinated substances. I will be resisting the Cheddar Jack Cheeze-its’ siren call. I will give side-eye to the chocolate covered raisins. I might even (gasp) give up cheese.
No, I haven’t gone full blown hippy. Please. I love the hippies but they are not my people.
So what is up?
WELL, I may not be full blown hippy but I am a little bit hippy…cuz guess what, I am doing a CLEANSE!
Let me pause to give you time to roll your eyes.
Ready to move on?
I get it. I am not really sure any actual “science” backs up all the claims people make about cleanses. Pff. Who needs “evidence” or “research”. I am doing it because I did one years ago as part of a yoga class. And, it felt freaking fantastic. Like, I was stunned by how great I felt afterwards. Kind of floored by it actually.
And frankly, I blame Jen Pastiloff. I signed up for her online class and as part of the experience we are doing a ton of self-care, yoga, journaling, all that jazz. And while the cleanse is optional I figured, why not? We are not doing the Beyoncé only-drink-liquids-containing-cayenne cleanse. Hell no. This is all about eating actual food. Just the really boring stuff. Vegetables!! BROWN RICE. NUTS. And if you feel crazy, maybe some kelp and wheat grass juice!!
But no cuban coffees. Let me repeat: NO CUBAN COFFEES. It will just be me and my computer at 6:30 am with some hot water with lemon! Oh that will be fun.
Yes, change is in the air. The lanai doors are now open. The fall breezes are blowing. And sarah will soon be decaffeinated.
Have you done a cleanse? Have you mocked people who have? Share your story.